The word "Forever"

Forever. The dictionary definition is: "without ending, eternally, an endless or seemingly endless period of time". It's a word that I have come to hate. Forever to me means nothing. In my book it is fake. The only REAL meaning forever has to me, is my life with Christ. But even then I would rather use "endless" or "eternal" rather than forever. Even though they are used in the definition of forever, they have very different meanings to me. As life continues to crash down around me, I have watched many "forevers" end. I have always known that my family members wouldn't live forever, but to me, as a child and even now, I am not ready for the change that could come very soon. The heartbreak of losing a family member. One I am very close to. That is the first "forever" that suddenly has an ending. Or when a couple promises forever, but suddenly one of the couple becomes unsure that they are ready to commit to forever with you. That is the second "forever" that suddenly might have an ending. Or when one of the only things that keeps me going in life is taken away from you because of others. My horse, who I've been told to retire because I am ruining her. I've always known my horse wouldn't live forever either. But it isn't a change I am ready for nor that I have decided on. But suddenly it is another forever that has an abrupt ending. When I realize that I am almost halfway through the ability of choosing a career and yet I feel so lost. Forever is nothing. The only thing that lasts forever is a relationship and life with Christ. And that IS something, but to me, as I said before, I would rather use a different word for it. Because everything else I thought was "forever" in my life is being pulled away from me. I continue to pray everyday to find an answer to all these endings. I'm not giving up hope. And yet as I write this, I paused to read my Bible, and as I did so, the verse of the day on my Bible app on my phone, is John 16:33. It says "I have said these things to you, that you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world." Which is so powerful and amazing because God always reminds us that HE is in control. To take these hard times head on, but he is always in control. Thank you Lord! Thanks for reading. +Bec+